Existence / Non-existence of God Continued

Refer to the last post to bring yourself up to speed as to what is going on.

5/8/06I have given this supposed "god" a chance all my life and nothing has happened. O wait things have happened. They were called Columbine, 9/11, the War in Iraq, ... the list goes on. i gave religion a chance and it screwed up, i figured out that it is my duty to find the answers not to blindly follow a religion forced on me since the day i was born. You seem satisfied with the fact that you are going to heaven, i am satisfied with the fact that there is no heaven or hell only false hope and fear. There is only nothing after death. i am also satisfied with the thought that if i become a rapist murder, or a saint my fate stays the same just as yours will be. Nobody knows or will ever know how we, how exsistence came to be. Wehter it was an allpowerful god that took seven days to create exsistence wen, if he is allpowerful, could have surely done it in a matter of a second, or a huge bang with no origin created everything. They both have holes. I could come to grips with the fact that something could have made us, but not a god because if he was all knowing and all good wouldnt he wouldnt have but us through all this pain and suffering to test us because he would know all the concequences. I could go on with that forever but anyway my point is that it doesnt matter how we came to be, because if it was this "god" then he obviously isnt here anymore or just doesnt give a dam, all that matters is that we are here and our fate is in our hands. Our lives, the onty thing that exsists to us and will ever exsist to us (meaning no afterlife) is in our hands. The only gods that exsist is every one of us. You are your own god i am my own. There are no other gods. In relevance to "heaven" and "hell" you still make my point of control. The people with power, the smart ones anyway, dont blindly rule masses of people. A long time ago when people had to endure extremly hard times of work and suffering many would have given up and stop working. That is when the rulers realized to save their empires and cities, that they could create false hope in these people tell them that their labor would be repaid in the "afterlife" where everything will bee ok. Sure I can admit that all these creations of the human imagination and forms of control could have gotten is right, but thre is always a chance for everything. You know what they say, "If you put a bunch of monkies in a room full of type writers there is a chance they will write shakespear," Meaning that there is a very VERY small chance you are right but dont count on it. The more likely scenario is that you are wrong and you have wasted a perfectly good human mind in worshipping a false god who preaches that he knows all the answers when actually you need to find the answers out for yourself.You still havent told me what proof you have.